I Am Jack's Deep-Thought

Taking a step back from the real world, I lik eto look at things as if I were a character in a movie or book, and all of my little dramas are just so laughable, so insignificant that I can react the way the the character would, and life would seem to go on as if it were a dream. So easy and tolerable.

But then it all snaps back into place before I can even enforce that decision.
I wonder often why such things happen to good people, as do everyone else.
And I've come to the conclusion that it's not a punishment, but a puzzle i have to work out, to make me stronger in my will to survive, my intellect, even emotionally. Making me solve these difficult life prolems as to make me into some sort of "super-human" sort of.
And when it comes down to it, people have surved much worse than a parents divorce, than molestation, a difficult breakup, heartbreak, being lied to; it all comes down to the way you deal with it, the way it affects you, and if you're strong enough.
I don't know if "God" planned this all out for me or some other higher being, or if it's just something man created so we can cop ewith life in a way that satisfies ourselves. In a way that makes us feel more enlightened, even if the enlightenment comes from our own minds. No one's given it to us, we create it from within our own strengthes. I don't need Jesus to tell me that Sins are Sins because it's something you must know deep within your heart, something you create as well as the punishment that goes along with it. You wont go to "hell", but you sure will get a good dosage of karma your way for the things you do in life. It's just the way it is. If there were no morlas such as these, no "sins" to commit, life would have no meaning, nothing to gain, nothing to lose. Just Chaos. Which doesn't give as much fufillment as you would imagine.
In face, going through life in infinite pleassure, no punishment for our wrongdoings, only graditude and praise, how would you even have a consince? How would guilt lead you onto your spirituality.

Maybe, it's not spirituality that we look for, but a sense that our world is in favor of us, because we are ourselves. Because we accept ourselves for the person that we are. The indiviual that chose to do the "right thing" and felt good about it. Our own makebelieve spirtuality.